you've gained weight don't you?
wanted to ask how are you but I can't... I need time. I couldn't stop worrying bout you as you always acted like a child with that mimic face and even think like a child. Time gone so fast. It's already end of August.
.....
Thinking how awful I am, how cruel I acted. I have a hill of sins. Thinking karma is around. I've already feel it. Although it wouldn't heals, I believe it was never enough for it.
All I can say now is I'm sorry for what I've done. I'm not asking for forgiveness, but I really hope someday you'll understand why.
I don't know what to say... Anyway, take care and may god and angel will bless you all the time.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
My first advertorial shoot
Original scanned by dad. Haha
Edited by me using Vintique.
:) look quite weird right? Never expected to be called for advertorial shooting.
Lauríer Super Slimguard, maximum absorbency, no worry for leakage and quick dry surface. It's AWESOME! No worry even it's your first day of period :)
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Monday, August 27, 2012
New hair colors!
At last. The day I've been waiting for. Dye my hair with blue and violet! Not the whole hair of course. Suppose to be dip-dye but bro have a better idea which just the lower back of my hair. Need to tied up my hair to be seen.
Bleaching! Hair spoiled! :(
Yes, it's a home salon. My bro is a hairstylist and he's my personal hairstylist.
Looks like purple, pink and green. It's actually turquoise but in photo looks like green.
Finally... ^^
Am happy with new hairstyle although the part of my hair is dead. Haha!
Goodnight people!
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Weird object!
Yesterday I saw something weird in the sky while I was driving to my friend's home.
A first, I thought it was rubbish but when I go nearer, it looks like a kite. At the end, I don't know what it is.
Zoom into the dark spot!
As an evidence to proof that I'm not too sick to saw it. I was having fever yesterday.
Anyway, this things is not spinning, as you can see I can capture it without any moving moment. It's like being absorb from the sky. Well, I thought it was toy but then I saw no one controlling this weird object. If it was a toy, it wouldn't be flying up higher than the building. You can see the picture itself. It's so high above! Been telling parent and bro as well as my friend. Lol. To make sure I'm not crazy.
Anyway, if possible, leave me some comment if you have seen this before.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
A first, I thought it was rubbish but when I go nearer, it looks like a kite. At the end, I don't know what it is.
Zoom into the dark spot!
As an evidence to proof that I'm not too sick to saw it. I was having fever yesterday.
Anyway, this things is not spinning, as you can see I can capture it without any moving moment. It's like being absorb from the sky. Well, I thought it was toy but then I saw no one controlling this weird object. If it was a toy, it wouldn't be flying up higher than the building. You can see the picture itself. It's so high above! Been telling parent and bro as well as my friend. Lol. To make sure I'm not crazy.
Anyway, if possible, leave me some comment if you have seen this before.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Moment for today....
it's not a crime
It's not a crime or anything for not knowing how to read Chinese word okay?
Don't be so surprise that a Chinese people don't know how to read.
It's a deep pain and anger when someone react like that.
This happen to me okay while I work with my mom. This Indonesian aunties asking the price and everything and she ask if there is any Chinese word can be form. Of course not. The whole sample is on the table and it is in alphabetical form. Is she blind? I told her and she ask me to re write the Chinese word that she show me in her own paper. I say no Chinese and I don't know how to read. She became so fierce to me and ask why I couldn't read. These typical auntie is making me so pissed off. Auntie, lu goblok! Gue memang marah. Lu buta ke apa? Nngak bisa tengok ya?
bargain
People love bargain! I love bargain coz I don't buy thing for a thing that not worth the price. When I help my mom to work, I hate people who bargain. Why? Hey, it's handcraft stuff and what do you think? My mom's palm turn numb when thousand of keychain have to be done to you guys. It's only RM10, not RM100. I got really pissed off when people bargain with me. Today, there's an Arab's couple ask for the price. There he goes.
Arab man : how much.
Me : one name, RM10.
Arab man : if I make two?
Me : RM20.
Arab man : last price?
Me : RM30.
Then... Both of us, trololololol! Hahaha! I've been waited all the time to say this. Hahahahahahaha! Both of us laughed! Lol!!
Anyway, use your common sense while bargaining okay?
"Ki hiao"
While clearing everything from the table, 4 Arabian guys in the age of 25, make 15 names. Trying to bargain but we just smiled at them saying no. They're okay with is. One of them took a paper wrote "I love you" and shows it to his friend and he shattered it off. Then he look at me. This is not the first time I caught him looking at me. Lol. Well, maybe it's not. Then he wrote "she's cute" and he quickly flipped the paper back when he realized that I'm peeking on what he is writing. LOL
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
It's not a crime or anything for not knowing how to read Chinese word okay?
Don't be so surprise that a Chinese people don't know how to read.
It's a deep pain and anger when someone react like that.
This happen to me okay while I work with my mom. This Indonesian aunties asking the price and everything and she ask if there is any Chinese word can be form. Of course not. The whole sample is on the table and it is in alphabetical form. Is she blind? I told her and she ask me to re write the Chinese word that she show me in her own paper. I say no Chinese and I don't know how to read. She became so fierce to me and ask why I couldn't read. These typical auntie is making me so pissed off. Auntie, lu goblok! Gue memang marah. Lu buta ke apa? Nngak bisa tengok ya?
bargain
People love bargain! I love bargain coz I don't buy thing for a thing that not worth the price. When I help my mom to work, I hate people who bargain. Why? Hey, it's handcraft stuff and what do you think? My mom's palm turn numb when thousand of keychain have to be done to you guys. It's only RM10, not RM100. I got really pissed off when people bargain with me. Today, there's an Arab's couple ask for the price. There he goes.
Arab man : how much.
Me : one name, RM10.
Arab man : if I make two?
Me : RM20.
Arab man : last price?
Me : RM30.
Then... Both of us, trololololol! Hahaha! I've been waited all the time to say this. Hahahahahahaha! Both of us laughed! Lol!!
Anyway, use your common sense while bargaining okay?
"Ki hiao"
While clearing everything from the table, 4 Arabian guys in the age of 25, make 15 names. Trying to bargain but we just smiled at them saying no. They're okay with is. One of them took a paper wrote "I love you" and shows it to his friend and he shattered it off. Then he look at me. This is not the first time I caught him looking at me. Lol. Well, maybe it's not. Then he wrote "she's cute" and he quickly flipped the paper back when he realized that I'm peeking on what he is writing. LOL
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Sometimes...
Sometimes I really wanted to go far far away where I could escape from everyone. A place where everyone is a stranger to me and they don't know anything about me. London, the place where I would really wanted to go for now. Second, Taiwan and China. Watched too much "Queen of SOP" I think.... Sometimes I have the mind of her. Rule is rule, thinking when will I be able meet my prince, whatever. I can live independently. Under one roof with my family makes me feel so dependent on them. Long driving from home to campus is tiring. Makes me feel time is short, I can't do much thing.
I realize how badly I couldn't defend for myself. Couldn't scold someone who makes me feel so down, anger and everything because whenever I think about it, I would ask myself first. It was me who being so confronted and committed to everything first. Miserably...
True. Everyone thinks that I'm strong...
If he really called, I might owe Galib a tequila. Yeah, we chat last night. Now he know why I'm being so into this matter. Not really much people know bout my past. My story was, I've been hurt by someone who I trusted that he would change, hold me till the last breath of mine, hold my hand till I'm dead, love me for how I aged, everything. At the end, he just walk away. All the words and promises he made, it was just a sweet talk and empty promises. But after all I've gone thru this, experienced it once, now I did it again and this time is even worst. I am being so committed to someone whom I never met, hold strong to his words, fall for him and saying background is bullshit. I promised not to play a game with someone's feeling but in the return, I'm in the game of theirs. Am not blaming them because I take their statements so easily. I admit it was my own fault and everything just a misunderstanding. Sorry...
Sorry for the grandmother story. I've think too much again. Sorry.
Wish I could think like this.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
I realize how badly I couldn't defend for myself. Couldn't scold someone who makes me feel so down, anger and everything because whenever I think about it, I would ask myself first. It was me who being so confronted and committed to everything first. Miserably...
True. Everyone thinks that I'm strong...
If he really called, I might owe Galib a tequila. Yeah, we chat last night. Now he know why I'm being so into this matter. Not really much people know bout my past. My story was, I've been hurt by someone who I trusted that he would change, hold me till the last breath of mine, hold my hand till I'm dead, love me for how I aged, everything. At the end, he just walk away. All the words and promises he made, it was just a sweet talk and empty promises. But after all I've gone thru this, experienced it once, now I did it again and this time is even worst. I am being so committed to someone whom I never met, hold strong to his words, fall for him and saying background is bullshit. I promised not to play a game with someone's feeling but in the return, I'm in the game of theirs. Am not blaming them because I take their statements so easily. I admit it was my own fault and everything just a misunderstanding. Sorry...
Sorry for the grandmother story. I've think too much again. Sorry.
Wish I could think like this.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Wanted but over
JS Leopard
I do not own this photos.
Credit to Juice KL.
Holy shit! 800 bucks! *heart break*
I thought 300-400 bucks so I would buy it but it's over my budget. If I bought it, mom would be bla bla bla me nonstop including dad :( dam sad right...... :'(
So sad!!!
Tomorrow going to buy color for my hair. ^^ dip dye from bro. Thank you in advanced!! Purple!!! Woohoo... Actually mom and dad don't like. =_= but dad say nvm d. Hohoho.... But am still not happy that I couldn't buy JS Leopard... :(
Work with mom for the whole month... :( no holiday.... :(
No comment. Gotta go. Bye.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Nuit...
One of my love...
Thanks for the dinner at Shogun. Special shout out for Jessica, Iris, Tebby, Mandy and Henrick for celebrating my so so belated birthday... Really thank you guys so much.
Tiramitu with my pressie. I love her. Hahaha
Bed sheet from Iris, Jessica and Tebby. It's hello kitty omg!!
The Wanted hello kitty from bro.
Mini pink wing on Tiramitu's left is from Kelvin, bro's friend.
Thank you so so so much! ❤❤
Why there's a mole on top of my lip? I don't have mole there. Cacat de photo.
Wearing my favorite tube dress again. I always love this dress! My favorite!!
Awesome night... I love my friend. Love my friend's parent as well. Of coz, I love my parent the most! Hahaha
Hmm, never post their pic before. Lets see....
Here we go. Celebrating mom's birthday at their home. Yea, I'm staying outside with my bro now. Don't ask why.
Faking being serious. LOL
Before I sleep. Goodnight people. Happy reading!
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Friday, August 10, 2012
Why me?
it's already obvious that I expressed everything here in my blog and yet there is no response from you... Nothing solid, nothing concrete. I just don't know why am I still thinking of you tho it is really tearing me apart deep inside. Sorry, PMS coming soon in "cinema". Am really hope one day I could really stop thinking and telling myself that this is just a lie, manda. But I couldn't. Whenever I try to tell myself that is is just a lie, there's a soft whisper saying that, "no, it's real babe". Why is it so miserable? Why am I is the only should wait but not you? It is worth for me to do so? Why wouldn't you reply me?
Sometimes I really wonder, really really wonder that did I ever crossed your mind just once through out the whole duration that we have been so....so stranger... I don't know which word should I use to describe this situation.
I do even think that how nice would it be without you approaching me early in the morning and how would it be like without you coming to my life. I really wanna know. I mean, how can you be so mean that you can say something so convincing and real to me then you left without a trace. Why would you wanna do something like that to someone? You might not know that you have become someone that mean so much to me. Even a game have a "game over" but you went missing just like that.
I remember one of my friend post his status something like "if thing goes smoothly, something is wrong". So... Maybe something is wrong. Friends told me this is just a prank. I remember how I talk to your cousin and tell him not to prank me, you and him just make thing look so real. Skype and everything, so solid. Until you flew.... Everything starts to change. Now, everything seems like a game without an end.
I'm like "what have I done to you until you have to set a game like this for me?". I told my friends that I had enough of waiting. The biggest lie I ever made. I'm not over you yet. Just to make them stop worrying about me. Yes, this is me. Always keep 'em in my heart till I told them...
Now, smile is the only thing I can do..... I miss you, boo....
Sometimes I really wonder, really really wonder that did I ever crossed your mind just once through out the whole duration that we have been so....so stranger... I don't know which word should I use to describe this situation.
I do even think that how nice would it be without you approaching me early in the morning and how would it be like without you coming to my life. I really wanna know. I mean, how can you be so mean that you can say something so convincing and real to me then you left without a trace. Why would you wanna do something like that to someone? You might not know that you have become someone that mean so much to me. Even a game have a "game over" but you went missing just like that.
I remember one of my friend post his status something like "if thing goes smoothly, something is wrong". So... Maybe something is wrong. Friends told me this is just a prank. I remember how I talk to your cousin and tell him not to prank me, you and him just make thing look so real. Skype and everything, so solid. Until you flew.... Everything starts to change. Now, everything seems like a game without an end.
I'm like "what have I done to you until you have to set a game like this for me?". I told my friends that I had enough of waiting. The biggest lie I ever made. I'm not over you yet. Just to make them stop worrying about me. Yes, this is me. Always keep 'em in my heart till I told them...
Now, smile is the only thing I can do..... I miss you, boo....
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Food!!
On my... Food is the only thing I grab from Tesco hypermarket. I almost buy some baby's food for myself too.. Hahaha.!!
See...? I must be crazy. But I do love to do so. I get to buy so many foods without mom say "no" to me. Haha I just love it.
Almost everything here is my favorite food.
Alright, I'm hungry now. Shall grab my dinner now. ^^
Ciaoooz!
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
See...? I must be crazy. But I do love to do so. I get to buy so many foods without mom say "no" to me. Haha I just love it.
Almost everything here is my favorite food.
Alright, I'm hungry now. Shall grab my dinner now. ^^
Ciaoooz!
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Dato' Lee will always be our champion!
A very big applause to Dato' Lee from Malaysia. Don't be too upset. You're still our number one! Our legendary hero!
We will never forget your determination to be the best, the champion. No worry, you will always be.
Those people who supported Dato' Lee because of free BR ice cream and holiday, great job!
For those who blame him for no BR ice cream and holiday, go enter Olympic and redeem it yourself. Stop talking cock at the back.
Dato's Lee has been struggled to win this battle and yet you guys are complaining. Thanks to him that he managed to be the top 3 in the badminton.
Thanks to people who wrote these words.
Thanks to this people who created this meme.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
We will never forget your determination to be the best, the champion. No worry, you will always be.
Those people who supported Dato' Lee because of free BR ice cream and holiday, great job!
For those who blame him for no BR ice cream and holiday, go enter Olympic and redeem it yourself. Stop talking cock at the back.
Dato's Lee has been struggled to win this battle and yet you guys are complaining. Thanks to him that he managed to be the top 3 in the badminton.
Thanks to people who wrote these words.
Thanks to this people who created this meme.
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Shopping!!
Weee!! I love shopping!! But, never shop when you're moody, upset or negative thinking. That's spend without thinking twice. Lol!! Trust me, you'll regret after you got home even though you feel better.
Let see what I've bought, shall we?
Dam, I love Sungei Wang. Was thinking twice should I buy the sunglasses and the heels.... Did not managed to buy coz I left the place thinking to look for a better one but then I forget or there's nothing better than before. Sigh....
Anyway, shopping in Sungei Wang it's not easy. Yes, they have similar thing but the price is different. I got the ruby pant for 35 bucks. At the same level but different sop is selling for 25 bucks. Daheq??!! Feels like I've been cheated. Really do have to find a good price before buying it.
Suppose that I am buying some hair color and bleachers for my hair but they do not have stock in hand. Ended up buying shampoo and mousse. Quite cheap tho. I like that shop. Thanks to bro for the recommendation. Know what kind of style I'm going for? Dipping. If you don't know, check out Avril Lavigne hairstyle. 2 colors if I'm not mistaken. But I'm still thinking should I go for normal hair dye, dipping or highlight.... Grrr!!
Anyway, I'm sleepy. Lack of sleep during assessment week. :(
Goodnight peeps. By the way, "Oppa gangnam style...!" Ahahahaha
Addicted to this song!
Spider-pig, spider-pig. You're freaking cute. Is it available in plushie form? Wanna hug till its exploded! Hahaha. ^_^
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Let see what I've bought, shall we?
Dam, I love Sungei Wang. Was thinking twice should I buy the sunglasses and the heels.... Did not managed to buy coz I left the place thinking to look for a better one but then I forget or there's nothing better than before. Sigh....
Anyway, shopping in Sungei Wang it's not easy. Yes, they have similar thing but the price is different. I got the ruby pant for 35 bucks. At the same level but different sop is selling for 25 bucks. Daheq??!! Feels like I've been cheated. Really do have to find a good price before buying it.
Suppose that I am buying some hair color and bleachers for my hair but they do not have stock in hand. Ended up buying shampoo and mousse. Quite cheap tho. I like that shop. Thanks to bro for the recommendation. Know what kind of style I'm going for? Dipping. If you don't know, check out Avril Lavigne hairstyle. 2 colors if I'm not mistaken. But I'm still thinking should I go for normal hair dye, dipping or highlight.... Grrr!!
Anyway, I'm sleepy. Lack of sleep during assessment week. :(
Goodnight peeps. By the way, "Oppa gangnam style...!" Ahahahaha
Addicted to this song!
Spider-pig, spider-pig. You're freaking cute. Is it available in plushie form? Wanna hug till its exploded! Hahaha. ^_^
- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤
Friday, August 3, 2012
Semester 3 is over!!!
Finally!! Exam is over!!!! Yay...! I'm freaking tired, sleepy, exhausted and bla bla ngi ngi ngiao ngiao..... Today is the last paper which is QM and I realize quite a number of mistake I've done but seriously, last paper doesn't make me concern much. I don't know why.
My outfit for today. Trying to dress like the photo that she posted yesterday. Too bad I don't have long silky scarf... And a white shirt. Is in laundry bag...
Yayyy! Should apply for SIA or Qatar or Emirates. Lol.dreaming again.
They say Ivan coming back and it's true. Nick say he's in KLIA already and Nick is inside toilet poooping while replying me. LOL. Am gonna meet my red riding hood kitty soon!! *hearts*
Is he coming down too? Hmmm......
Anyway, tomorrow am going to shopping with my beloved lady, Ee Laine!
Yes, my favorite baby although she always like to annoy me so much. But I do Sayang her so much... :)
Sungei Wang! Here I come!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
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Just a moment ago, grandpa came across my mind when I saw a photo of grandpa with sad face in Facebook. Really tear my heart apart. I miss grandpa.... :(
"Kong, how are you? Are you still riding bicycle up there or driving merz? I miss you so much... :( send my regards to grandma, k? ❤"
Back to the olden days where grandpa still sitting in the wheelchair mumbling, I always asked him "KONG. STILL REMEMBER ME OR NOT???!!".
He will like "you you you you are *idkwhosenamewasthat*". Definitely, grandpa forgotten. I always remind him but he still forget... :) grandpa is cute!!
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Had my manicure and pedicure express just now at Posh Nails.
Chubby fingers
And chubby toes. They're not ugly. They're beautiful in my way.... ❤
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