If only someone could understand me

I'm the bad one and you're the good one.

The gaps between us is our religions.
Yes, it is.
From the first day, I thought it wouldn't be a problem.
But soon or later, I know it was a mistake but I'm still on it.


Mom started to mumble and then dad silent but I know, soon or later his volcano will burst.
Even now, sibling and relatives know.
But I never say a word to you.


All negative comes to me. Have you ever know how stress I am and how upset I am.
Every critiques that I receive, I never told anyone.
Every words, I keep in my heart.


You started to pushing me.
Day by days, it gets heavier.
All arguements start when the time goes by.
Same, it gets worsen.
Then you ran away from arguement leaving me thinking why is this happen.


I just need you to understand how does it feel having a lover and family keep pushing you.
Is it for you, a dating couple need to be with together 24/7?
Is it compulsary for a dating couple must hang together everyday?
You think you missed me and I'm not missing you at all?
From the text of yours, I felt that you don't have a faith in me.
Yes, you don't have.


Not everyone can sacrifice something for love.
I couldn't sacrifice my family love because of you and I couldn't sacrifice you for family love.
I'm greedy, I know.


You don't know me well, don't you?
If you know, you wouldn't do this to me.
How could you do this to me?
Every word of you, you say you sayang me the most.
Yes, you are but when we're into arguement, you hurt me the most too.

Everything has changed.
Especially both of us.

I appreciate what you have given to me in all these time.
Thanks for giving me the sweet and bitterness in my life.

Back to home again... and I'm a loser

4 days 3 nights in JB & Singapore was so fun but I don't know why Li May and Ee Laine keep saying that I look emo.
Maybe I was too tired because walk too much...
It is very hot in Singapore during our trip.
Anyway, I love my trip so Singapore.

*hearts*

Today, another disaster... It suppose to be fine and cool but turns to be COLD.
He said that I torturing him. In which way I wonder...
Have he ever thinks that he is torturing me too?
No, he is not torturing me.
He stressed me out.
I thought that he understand why am I being like that but he was just like ignoring the problems that I'm facing.
There is no use I am explaining right now nor complaining.

I say that you never appreciate the time that I'm trying to hang with you, it is the way I feel about you whenever you say that I got no time for you.
When I'm off in 2 or 3 hours time, you start to show me your sad face.
Is not that I am intended to leave you so early.
What's wrong with you keep shooting at me?
Sounds like whatever arguement happens, I am the one who to be blamed.
Then on the half of the arguement, you avoid yourself.
You never once settle the arguements.

You went so far for internship, I did not being negatives or trying to find arguements with you altho only once or twice. (3months)
We did not hang for few days, you start to emo and so on. (1month)

Compare a month of mine and 3months of yours.
Yeah, maybe you're weak.
You said I'm not giving the best and I did not try.
Fine, you say it all.
I don't wanna have any arguement.

The 5th time you hurt me.
Thanks.

Out for 4days

Will be leaving to JB tomorrow morning...
Then will be visiting Singapore 2days. =)

Today is the best night ever.
Game with dad! Left For Dead 2!!! *hearts*
He ask me for game. At first, Fifa but don't know what happen to the X-Box can't read the disc so we change it to LFD2. *ngehh*

Awww.... I can't wait to go JB tomorrow!!! ^^
So I'm going to bed right now. x_x
Night guys! *hearts*

My pet : Sherry

She looks so innocent right? =3

Was on the way to clinic for her vaccination.

She growns up very fast.

Damn hyperactive.

Somehow, I felt that she is quite annoying. Why?

Everytime when there is someone in the living room or came back, she keeps barking.

You know la, Golden Retriever voice damn loud one. =-=

I'm worried the neighbour will complain.

Anyway, I still dunno why bro wanna adopt her...

This dog supposed to be trained every week and full of muscle.

When my bro offday, he did not even bring her out.

For almost 2months she never went for training. =-=

Soon she will become lazy fella. (*&^%$#

Bro adopt her for fun I think.

Damn pity.

When she barks for nothing, for sure want to eat or play.

My bro only shout at her and ask her to shut up. wtf?!

He never wanted to train the dog.

Don't even know how to take care of himself, yet he wanna adopt the dog. =-=

Damn troublesome.
Aih.....

My pet : Tommy (mix breed)

He loves to eat ice-cream! (I think he eat watever we eat. no shit plz =-=)

I always buy him chocolate because it sweet mah~ ^^

Pity him got a tumor on his right ear, and now on the left. =(

We did not take a good care of him.

He is the best. Doesn't annoys me like Sherry did. !!!
He is better than Sherry.

Clumsy him. Keep turns around the pole and the chain got shorter. Haha~

Now he's getting old. =(

But he live with us for almost 10years ++.

Very old d... But still strong. Can eat fast fast. LOL

"Wai sek gao". =P

My pet : Asumi (mix persian)

This is the picture when we (whole family) bought her back.

She is very curious about the surounding.

And this is the only picture of her when she was 2months++ ( I think so...)

She loved boxes no matter big or SMALL.

As long as she can hide inside there.

When she heard voices (2 or 3 especially my voice) she will come down and roll over the floor like the pic above. Why?

She loves being pamper by me.

She does watch cartoon but not much. This is the only time she watch cartoon with me.

Oh, it is bird cartoon. No wonder. =)

She does watch Discovery Channel because got her siblings (leopard, cheetah, tiger, etc).

She loves to hide inside closet too.
Btw, she loves to lay under my clothes. =-=

Can you find her? (the toys was actually hide inside my closet because I got sensitivity towards 'em. So my mom kept it in my closet instead sleeping with me on my bed)

Assassin Creed?? LOL
I was wearing hoodie jacket to mom's house.
She came down and I put her on my jacket.
She look so cool. =-=


She is the my 1st beloved cat among the others. =P

Oh my goshhh

I was too lazy and bored to study MPW and finished my FnB and English notes, I went online shopping again but window shopping.
Pass by one forum which selling Nike which is pre-order from UK.
Both of the shoe caught my eyes. WTF

I WANT!!!! T-T
No money larh...
I kept thinking bout SG and Iphone.
Both of this is a disaster to me. I keep saving money for it.
Hate myself for being greedy. =-=
What to do? I'm girl what.... Aih....

Tomorrow is the last day for final! YES!
3 papers. WTF!
1st day of final was like "omg omg!"
Study damn hard for Food Science and the paper was superbly extremely EASY!

Today, second day. Study mood was gone.

Thinking Skill was like OMG.

I screw up Question 2. T-T

Tomorrow, hopefull FnB was easy as ABC and English is "wet wet water".

For MPW, damnz!

*blank*

Heading to bed now.

Way too tired.
I want the SHOE!!! T-T

Bankrupt of the bakrupt.

Cannot think bout shopping anymore.