Malaysiaku, Tanah Airku.

Malaysia, my country, my home. A place where we are not landed with disaster like tornadoes, volcanoes, or a major natural disaster. A place with diversify of culture.

For foreigner, Malaysia is an ideal place to visit due to currency exchange rate. We are twice lower compare to our tight competitor, Singapore. We are hardly able to see our Ringgit increase. Hence, it's nice to shop around. We have beautiful Pavillion, we have mega shopping mall like Midvalley, complicated Sungei Wang Plaza, electronic and technology malls of Low Yat Plaza and much more. How can you even resist not to try to travel here once?

See, we are very much better. But hey, what's the use of being like that? We, citizens are suffering. Why? It sounds so beautiful to stay and live here but our expenses are increasing next month, 2014. Tolls fees, petrol (increased), public transport fares, taxes, electricity bills and etc. Many subsidies were reduced. Claimed to help the poor but ever think of intermediate family? They earn just nice for themselves but apparently everything increased at one shot, how are they going to bear it? Did they do any critical thinking about the rest?

So let's just say the subsidies were reduced to help the poor. Are they going to be rich after that? I don't think so. I'm serious, I don't think so. I'm not saying that I'm good in economic (I just passed my economic). But seriously? It's a naive thinking tho....

Why don't they increase the minimum wages of RM900 to more? If minimum wages does not increase, how are they going to survive with the expenses striking high at one shot? How will they ever have a greater power to purchase more?

P.S: I'm not using any new facts to blog.

I'm upset by the public transport fare being increased. But the public transports is unreliable. It always late. Delay, delay, delay. Expensive if travel further few station. I wouldn't wanna compare with another country but just for your information, I travel to France last month and it was superb. I have to rely on public transport. I have to pay 1.70 Euro in Paris and I can go as far as I want for one way (within Paris). I know you will say the size of the both city is different. Okay... SNCF is very much reliable. Every 2 -3 minutes per train. What about KTM? 20-25 minutes per train?

Well, Malaysian who travel to any country which well built infrastructure like here. You should know the difference... How will we ever be the best?

I'm sorry to blog bout this tho. But I haven't talk about crime rate yet eh. Maybe next blog.

Voila!

Have a great day ahead!

Clashed....

This final semester turns out to be totally different than what I've expected. I'm expecting everything can be go very smoothly than before but it turns out to be worst. Not really as worst as probably what you think right now but, yeah.... I'm quite upset for what's happening.

 

One of the subject which got really messed up a lot which I first though we are the best compared to the rest because in my group, all of them have a strong skill and ability. But because of miscommunication, everything went totally wrong. Everything came last minute, makes me feels like nobdy give a damn. I think I've pissed off every groupmate of mine because of my bad temper and I'm quite straighforward when I'm upset.

 

Sigh, now I feel so doomed because I think I couldn't really understand what he wanted to say and when I wanted him to repeat, he's like nahitsfine attitude. I feel so terrible because I couldn't get what he meant in the first place, ended up everything is crashed. I'm totally speechless. Quite upset that he just went quiet with strong breathing sound when I drove him way back. No conversation just a thanks and bye. Where's the bisous? My expression totally went blank. Empty.

 

Great....

Maybe you just don't know the feeling of turning down people or maybe being turned down. You just go with your flow. Giving me false hint and say everything like it wasn't an answer. Yeah, all the time. I should have not trusted so much on you and accept the fact that it is always untrue. You have no idea how people think about us for always turning them down. You'll never understand.

Suckest day ever. Bad year ahead of turning another one year older. Phone spoilt during updating, puke in the club, you listen to stranger rather than listening to me, creep him out, been apologizing for different thing for 3 days continuously to him... What's next?

I really really tired of this for some times.... Apologize and go? I can't... Maybe I could apologize for raising my voice and forgive, but I doubt forget. Just too much of false hope given. Heard enough as well. I believe it will happen again for my next training. Far? When I say nearby, you would say far because Sunway it's just 20 minutes away and you complained far. Thanks tho....


- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤

I hate myself.

Once again I hurt someone who are innocence. I hate myself so much right now... I hate myself to the maximum point of my life. I'm such a jerk... I really really hate myself right now.


- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤

I have no rights to judge people because everyone did mistakes too.


- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤

Since....

Seconds ago, I was browsing through my iPhone photo and I saw you again. With the print-screened text, it just slightly made me feel hurt. But of course that I do know that promises are meant to be broken or empty, because I did it too but not to you.

Trusted you was my biggest mistake that you were real for me. Real to the optimum peak that I couldn't imagine that it was just a choice for you. How stupid that I can be. To be honest, yes, I still missed you.

I don't know why it is you. I don't know why that just you who can gives so much impact to me even though it was just for a month. Seriously? Yes, it is so serious that after a year, I just couldn't forget it.

I just can't...


- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤

Have you ever wonder how you want your life to be, how it goes and what you wanna do.

Well, I just did. Flashing back what makes me happy when I'm with my ex. What we have done that could make us happy and what we have done that could tear us apart.




It is so fun that we could tease each other and ended up nose rubbing saying "I love you". One wait for another to be ready to go out by asking "ready?" or "let's go" either by text or call or even face to face. It doesn't matter how it was asked. Riding on the bike or car and look at him how concentrate when he's driving but still taking the chances to hold my hand. Without asking further about what you wanna eat, he just know where to go and what to eat.




No matter how much you dislike, you ended up accepting it without your conscious. Isn't that lovely? Cigarette, alcohol, supper. Who cares? Fat, thin, short, tall. Who bother? All these are nothing because we're fooled by love.




What tear us apart? Bringing up old arguments. Cursing each other. Forget for a day, continue the next day. Act like nothing happen, but holding the grudge. Misunderstanding, unwillingness to tolerate, one stills holding strong and another wanted to let go. Third party trying to destroy us. Lose in faith.




All I wanted for is just a simple life with a man that I love. That I am willing to walk with him. A man that could show me his love, not by words. Show me his caring, not money. Show me the future, guiding me along the way, stand up for each other's back. Trust, faith, love and patience.



- je m'appelle Amanda... ❤